Forever?

Mom and Dad are gone. There at fostercare classes. Our familie's thinking about fostercaring. I was the person who wanted to fostercare the most...but now I don't think so. I'm just so screwed up, I don't know how I could help a kid who can't live with their parents. Man, I wish they would hurry up and get back. I hate when its just Hannah, Caleb, and me alone in the house. (I'm the oldest in my family if you were wondering.) I can't wait to go to bed tonight. For some reason I LOVE the house when every ones sleeping. I can read, play on the computer, or just think. I baby sat today. I baby sat a girl named Ruby who was three, and a boy named Max who I think is about to turn two, today. (Yes, hahah the tv show Ruby and Max) They are adorable.

Yesterday, my mom told me my grandma got really depressed too. She said she still struggles with it. It made me kind of sad to think that. What if it never goes away, and I have it for the rest of my life? I can't function like this. EVERYTHING is hard right now, will it always be like this until the day I die? I wish that day would hurry up and come, so that I wouldn't have to fill this way. I'm so scared of whats going to happen. I'm so stressed all the time, even if theres nothing to be stressed about. I wish my mom and dad would hurry up and get home soon.