The reasons I hate school.

I want to start out saying I hate school. When i was little I thought i hated school...that wasn't hate, i didn't even know what real hate was like until 8th grade. And each year after that my hate becomes more and more. The only year i have liked was 7th grade, and i only liked it for halve a year, four months to be percise. The first halve of 7th grade i was homeschooled, and on my 13 birthday my grandma offered to pay for me to go to a privat Christian school called "Bethesda Christian school" BCS for short. I don't know what made me take the risk and say yes...I don't like taking risks, I'm very shy around people. I guess what made me say yes was "Harry Potter". Just amagine if Harry Potter said no to Hagrid and that he wanted to stay with the Dursly's! Thats what i thought when i said yes. I wanted to be brave like Harry Potter. And pretty much the same thing happened to me that happend to Harry Potter. I made friends right away. I did not expect that, I guess I figure my self unlovable, I mean Im kinda loser in away. But my friends didn't think that. I had gone to the school in 1st and 2nd grade, and a girl named Lauren remembered me. I was at my locker ,trying to open it, when she came up to me and started talking. She had very blond hair and was tall. She said we were best friends when we were little, but honostly i don't remember her at all. I'll allways remember her now though, shes made of awsomeness, all of my friends are. My group of friends : Katie, Alayna, Emme, shannon, Marry, and Jenny. I LOVED the school, for four wounderful months. I would actually wake up early so that I could get to school and hang out with Katie, she got there really early. I only had 2 class with her, Bible and gym, so i only got to hang out with her before school, during lunch, and after school. I know Im sounding like a creepy stalker or something, but i loved that place and my friends. I never had friends like that before that I got to see every day besides my best friend Beth. I was the happiest i had ever been, and because i was so happy i got on the A, B honor roll...which NEVER happend! I was so happy when i got my report card, i felt so proud. And i joined the softball team! Alayna and Meridith (who was also my friend) was on the team too. I remember right after school leaving on the bus to go to a game, that was probibly the funnest part, the bus ride I mean. We would have hilarious conversations, and i would laugh SO hard. Gym class was even barible with my friends. I remember Katie predicting my futer as we walked/ran around the gym. She said i would either grow up to marry some rich man or have 30 cats...very fun memory. And then Meridith chasing me around the gym. The last couple of weeks of school we just sat around doing nothing in gym, which was fun. Those four months was the highlight of my life. I had never felt that good before, and sometimes don't think I ever will fill that good again. I don't think my friends even know how much they mean to me, they were like my family. I actually would get exsited on Sunday nights because i would get to go to school the next day!
But the next year was pretty hard. Only two of my friends came back: Alayna and Lauren. I missed them SOOO much and still do. Over the summer my family was going threw some really hard times, i wont go into them, but it was really hard for me. And the school let me down big time. My brother ,Caleb, is autistic. My parents wanted to send him to BCS so he wouldn't get made fun of. My parents told him they didn't care if he failed or got all F's just as long as he tried. But some teachers did care. They kicked him out right around Christmas...and what made it even worse was that they knew some off the things we had been going threw, and didn't care. That hurt me so bad. I remember thinking if these people are Christians then i don't want to be one anymore. I had to leave. I couldn't stand being around fakes any longer. Not that Lauren and Alayna were fakes, they're really cool people, it was the teachers.
So I left after Christmas break to go to Tri-west. Biggest mistake i have ever made! The minute I got there i knew i was gonna hate it. The school was full of pot heads and losers. I hung out with the super-geeks. They were nice, but that ment i was at the bottom of the food chain. I got made fun of so much. There were these girls that would hiss at me and my friends when we walked by, it sounds funny, but when halve the hallways looking at you, trying to make you upset, its not funny just scary. People would throw food at us in the lunch room, spit spitballs at us in art class, and laugh at us in the hallways. I have Never thought much of myself, but after that I thought i was a freak. And the bus ride home was HORRIBLE! There were two kids on the bus that were horrible to me, Eric and Sintheya (her nickname was sin! Who wants there nick name to be sin!?!?!) They would make fun of me a lot! And i despised them. So somehow i make it threw the year. Thinking back on it i have no idea how i did it. My grades droped to Bs, Cs ,and even a few Ds on my midterm. I didn't fit in anywhere. Not with the popular kids, sporty kids, band kids, arty kids, drama kids, nerdy kids, emo kids, gothic kids, popular Christian kids, nerdy Chrisian kids, super-smart kids. No one. I was classifide as a wall paper kid. Definition of wall paper kid- A person who does not say anything, or contribute anything. Has no friends and does not know any of the teachers, is not a trouble maker or gifted ,so there for no one notices them. AKA They blend into the wall or wall paper. Thats what i was, a wall paper kid.
Then 9th grade came alonge. UGGG! 9th grade didn't start out bad. But it gradually tumbled down hill. The only diffrence from last year was that I got bullied by bigger people. Im not going to go to much into this because i have a head ache and want to go to sleep.

So present time- im in 10th grade and im homeschooled now. I still hate school. I wish i was smart and understood everything, but i don't. I was born a year late. I should have been born in 1994 instead of 1993. All of my friends are a year younger than me and they go to Avon. I wish i could go to Avon and be in there classes, that would rock!!!

Well anyways i apollogies for writing all this boring and cry babystuff, but hey what am i gonna do? Oh, also i wanted to apollogies for my lack of spelling wisdom, hey i hate school, I don't spell lol.